happy birthday, weston!

it is now a few minutes after midnight on july 3, 2011. this means that my baby boy is now 1! i cannot believe it. i am sitting here in the quiet thinking about this day last year and what i was going through. right now i was on the way to the hospital, only to get there and be sent home again. how depressing! despite the 25 hours of labor, pain, tears, needles, medicines, epidural, c-section, and a husband who almost passed on in the operating room, the hardest and longest day of my life turned into the most precious and unbelievable on in a matter of seconds. I cannot imagine life without the little boy that is sleeping so quietly in his crib right now and has no idea how much he means to me. there is honestly nothing in my life that i am more proud to be called than mama. his little 8 lb 14 oz body that was born on that day is now 22 pounds running around the house like a little man and it is the most rewarding and remarkable experience each and every day. having a child really puts your life in persepective. i am now more thankful each day, notice the blessings more frequently, see the sunshine in his eyes when i think that the world is closing in on me. who knew that something so tiny and precious could make me a better person. i hope that i am able to provide enough love in his life that he will never doubt what he means and how much i believe in him. i am so excited for what the future holds for Weston and it makes tear up to think about how much he has in front of him. life is so precious and fragile and i am thankful to God that he trusts me with one of his children.